Remaining alert until the end of the run of the play...
Dear everyone,
How have you been? I am currently in the Sayashi home, being reminded that it's summer by the increasing number of insect bites that I have on my hands and feet without realizing it.
I am currently performing in the play "Surume ga oka wa...". Thank you so much to everyone who has been coming to the theater in this heat. Given the situation with the pandemic, it is nothing short of a miracle that we have been able to perform every day without cancellations.
We have worked very hard doing rehearsals, so it is very painful to hear news of shows being cancelled. We are always aware of the risks we are taking as we perform. I hope we can get through this together.
I am, after all, a person that worries about many things
Well...
When I have free time in my schedule, I try to see various artworks, and I am sure the things I see, subconsciously, affect my life, for better or for worse. But isn't it difficult to recall exactly what influenced you, or how your view on life has changed, after some time has passed?
This is true for everyday, human relationships as well.
There is an expression about how others don't really notice us as much as we think they do, which applies to people that worry too much about the impression they give to others (myself included). But even if this expression is true, everyone we meet leaves an impression that can influence us.
There are people who can remember a scene from a movie or a discussion you had with them very clearly. I can remember such things for some time, but as time passes, all that is left is a vague impression. I think I feel a little envious of people who can remember such things vividly. On the other hand, I can become anxious about someone remembering something I have forgotten.
I just met someone at work for the first time in 10 years, and they remembered me well, which made me happy, but at the same time, I was worried that I might have left a bad impression lol
The meaning of a single impression
Having said that, I think that the impression we get, has a lot to do with our own attitude at the time.
For example, in today's world, where we want everything to be simple and catchy, we often feel that first impressions are enough to tell us everything we need to know, and this can make it difficult to dig deeper.
Also, the person that receives the impression may be irritated by something that happened earlier, or on the contrary, be in a good mood, which can change the impression they get. For this reason it is difficult to have expectations on how the other person will perceive us.
I am a person that stands in front of a lot of people to deliver my work, and I remember many times being upset when I was being misunderstood.
So when I look at things from a distance, I try to understand their deeper meaning. I try to understand what a person is trying to convey, and not judge based on first impressions. I think I can receive more that way from people around me.
Because if I am subconsciously being influenced by various things, I want those influences to be good ones, right? I want to hold on to that thought. If you agree, I hope you can do that too.
Until next time.
